‘Bachelor’ Alum Madi Prewett Recalls Emotional Weight Of Living ‘Double Life’

During an episode of Candace Cameron Bure’s podcast, Prewett—the runner-up of season 24 of the long-running dating show—recalled her earlier experiences living a “double life” due to what she labeled as her relationship with sexual sin.

Madi Prewett shared that she didn’t start living an authentic life until she entered college, where she was able to break “free” from her addictive “cycle.”

Prewett has been open about her Christian faith before, and while speaking with “Full House” alum Bure, she shared even more about her spirituality.

During the conversation, Prewett was candid and spoke about a deeply personal issue that she said began in her teenage years.

“Around 13, 14 I got introduced to pornography at a young age by a friend and that started a long battle for me with porn and masturbation,” she told Bure. “And that created a lot of shame and secrecy in my life.”

For Prewett, fighting her addiction to pornography was challenging, largely due to how she presented herself to the outside world.

“And on the outside, it looked like everything was fine. But behind closed doors I was living this double life of living in constant secret sexual sin and not confessing it to anybody,” she said.

Prewett, who has been married to her husband Grant Troutt since 2022, later told Bure that her addiction to pornography only brought her “sin and shame,” something she couldn’t overcome until college.

“It wasn’t until college when I really confessed that sin and the shame from that sin for the first time,” she said. “And I got free from it, and I was able to break free from that addiction and that cycle.”

Prewett stated that she felt much “lighter” after opening up about her sexual sin. “I felt freer it was the opposite of the lies that Satan was whispering in my mind.”

As Prewett’s emotional conversation with Bure continued, the mother of one added that being honest about her addiction with those closest to her helped her learn that life with God was a judgment-free zone.

“That was really what that journey was like for me,” she said. “Even to this day, having moments of shame popping back up, immediately just confess it and get it into the light and share it with a friend.”

Prewett previously opened up about her struggle with pornography during an episode of her own show, “Stay True,” according to a report from The Blast.

During the episode, Prewett stated that her addiction to sexually explicit material caused more harm than good.

“I questioned my worth and my identity. Every time I gave into sexual sin, I didn’t know my purpose,” she shared.

Also, during that episode, Prewett echoed a sentiment similar to the one above, revealing that even today she chooses to walk in the light rather than retreat when things get hard.

“It’s still a choice for me every single day, even as a married woman, to not return back to the past of my sexual sin addictions,” Prewett explained. “It’s still a choice every single day for me not to choose to lust after things that I see online or to give into a feeling that arises.”

Prewett isn’t the only one who has had to resist difficult urges, according to The Blast. On her podcast, Prewett spoke with her husband about his own struggles—something he described as a “shameful, roller-coaster cycle.”

Troutt admitted to smoking marijuana and being addicted to pornography before something clicked, prompting a deeply personal experience with his faith.

“It drove me to this place where I have nothing but [God]. … I just remember walking with Jesus, [and] he was healing me. It was like he was stripping everything in my life because it was drawing me right into the person of Jesus Christ,” he said.